Movement movie, the end.

So we finished our movement movie, well, not really. Someone's editing it right now. In the last twenty minutes I suddenly got into a really bad mood, I'm really unsociable and people are making me angry. But that's okay.
Our group was called Crazy Hair... why is that? I don't know. Don't ask me that. When we first filmed, it was all serious and stuff. Then when we started filming the next day we didn't get the right camera, so all our footage was gone. I was really mad and frustrated. We had to start ALL over. It was more fun the second time though, because my group quit being all serious and stuff, and we just had fun with it. We went across the street in the water and got some really cool shots of us, and we also got a lot of cool ones of people walking. It was fun.
In the movie I was an actor, the assistant director, and I also read a quote. The other Lauren was the director and is a partial editor, Caitlyn (I think) was a partial editor, she sang, and acted. Samantha acted, and Ellek did also.
Our movie was pretty funny, at least I think so. It was mostly fun to film. I'm a Leo, so I like to be the boss, but it was still fun.

Movement Movie

For my class these past couple days we've had to make a movie about movement, and right now the editors are editing it. I was the assistant director. It was pretty cool. We read some quotes.

A Class With Mr. Richards - Movement

So on Friday we spent a class period with Mr Richards in the dance studio to work on another of Paul Baker's concepts, movement. I'm not going to lie. I did not enjoy it. I hate to dance, I hate all of that stuff, but I did learn a lot about movement. I'm just a clumsy, awkward person so it wasn't easy for me at all, I know zero dance moves. But I did know exactly what he was talking about.
Anyways, maybe I didn't enjoy the dancing part but I did like learning from Mr. Richards. I think he's a really good teacher and I understood the meaning behind it.
Aside from the lesson, I really enjoyed Mr. Richards. I laughed so much in there. One time he said "If you do not follow instructions, you will get an F. Fffff." I was almost in tears because it was just so dang funny.
Overall it was okay.
One of his quotes was "All dances are too long." that was my favorite one. He also said "Symmetry is lifelless" and that's kinda true.

my face

yeah that's me. this is an assignment and I look horrible right now. so don't judge, okay?

STEVE FREAKING JOBS.

He's gone. He was the best man ever. He made Apple, he created the thing that killed PC. Such an influence.
I was gonna meet him. I was gonna shake his hand. But I can't now.
Steve Jobs is pretty much my inspiration for life. He and Steve Wozniak created a multi billion dollar company in their house.

I'm just in shock.

Paul Baker/New Works

Well, in my New Works class, we had to write a one page paper on Paul Baker, who's pretty much the foundation of our school. I can't say I enjoyed it, but he is a pretty interesting person. He grew up and pretty early in his life he got into theater, and stayed there until he died.
In New Works class, we've been working on space, sound, and other elements of art. Paul Baker kind of fits into this, because it was kinda his philosophy to enjoy all parts of theater and stuff.
Maybe I'll learn more about this in the future. Hopefully I will.

Getting up on my feet.

I guess since I'm a teenager, most adults expect me to not care at all. But I do care. I care so much that it hurts sometimes. I think adults forget what it's like to try and find yourself, to be searching every single day for the place that you fit in the world. Some days I wish they'd remember how they felt, all those years ago. Not lost, but not found either. I know what I want to be, I know what I should be, and I know what the adults in my life expect me to be. Out of all this confusion, there's one thing I'm sure of.
I am an artist. No one out there knows my name... yet. I am an actress, a person that belongs onstage. I belong in the theater. It is where I feel most at home.
Some days I feel like I'll never make it, like I'll never succeed, I'll never be great. But on my first day of school, I realized something. I have the potential. And even though it sounds corny, if I believe in myself I know I can do it. Time, effort, and tears will go into it- that part I know - but I know I have the will.
So, here I am. A freshman, trying to find her place.
Life's kind of like a big puzzle, and everyone is a piece. You go around your whole life trying to see where you fit. You're surrounded by other pieces, some you may like, some you may hate, some you may love. Sometimes people don't ever find where they fit. But I will. I'm getting there, at least.